Chrose,
We're sure you made the right decision. Although I can't help but think that you are not as torn up as you make out to be.

Well, I for one, will keep this in mind and let you know if I think of something that may suit you.
Lets see.
Something where you would not have to stand but a few hours a day.
Have total creative freedom.
Assume some responsibility.
Be challenged daily, but not difficult.
Have the time to research new things, CT,etc.
Have complete support of those under you.
Basically something easy and high paying.
SHUT UP!!!!Thats my job!!!