Agree with Mikewoods it takes time but they will return to you. 15 years is a long run not to work in the kitchen and it is a lot to take in the. The heat, the hours, the standing just be upfront with the chef and take your time.
Welcome Antonella glad to have you. Many years ago I used to live in Polesine and worked at El Cavalino Bianco with Chef Massimo Spigaroli. Parma is a beautiful area of Italy. Don't worry about your English we look forward to your contributions.