So I got all fired up by some reading lately, and being cheap, and I spotted some fat rabbits out my mom's window, and I got to thinking: why not just bag the suckers and stop paying for food so much? And then I thought, okay, use a Havahart trap, let 'em fast 24 hours, they'll be cleaner. So I did research about this, and I realized my stomach isn't as tough as I thought. I found myself thinking, um, wait, skin it and cut it up and all that, I'm OK with that, but KILL it? With my bare hands? Errrrrmmmmmmmm....
Let me be clear. Offal? Yes. Kill a lobster? In a heartbeat. Chickens? Never done it, but it doesn't bother me as a concept. But mammals? I mean, fuzzy guys like me? Really? How do I get over this? I want to, truly. I want to be ready to bag something delicious without a qualm, but it does bug me. It also bugs me that a serious cook who likes meat has issues about the living beings he eats meat from, yet I have trouble getting over this.
I also want to take out wild turkeys in Vermont, where the darn things get everywhere and are pests, but I don't know how to do this without a gun and I have issues about buying a gun in the USA these days -- I'm afraid it's a vote for people I don't like, you know?
My great culinary heroes do this stuff, no problem, because they grew up in France or wherever and it was normal then and there. It's not so much, now, here.
What do I do?