Thank you for being so frank and honest. You have 5g's saved up ? Good for you. But you know in the long run you will need to get a place of your own, maybe a one room apartment or something like that (so you can still save and not rent a big apartment for nothing just to waste it all on rent). You are working, Yes ? Try to get on your feet as soon as possible. Be wise with your money. (smoking and drinking will not pay your rent).
Choose your friends wisely. Talk to the Chef , ask him what you can do to better yourself. Ask if there establissments he may know of where you can work to subsidize your income, or get experience. There are butcher stores ? Work there and learn like I did, see how its done/ and don't forget a bakey if they let you. There are just too many avenues in this industry that people don't look at to enrich their lives.
No man is an island.
In most of your posts you come across as someone who really wants to succeed, keep that mind set.
At 17/18 most of us did things we wish we did not or we thought we knew better. As you get older you will realize that :
No, not really, life is what YOU make it.
Since 18 almost every friday, saturday, sunday has been drunk
Sooner or later....its just not going to work , both mentally and physically. You are never at your best living this kind of pattern. Eventually work will suffer/your dream and who the heck wants to spend their days living in regret ? Not you I hope !
You stay positive......and change will come.