This morning I reached a breaking point with the restaurant where I was working. For weeks all the cooks have been overworked. The restaurant is understaffed but nobody wants to acknowledge it. There is NEVER enough time to get prep done before service, but the owners refused to hire prep cooks. The way the kitchen is managed is laughable. One of the sous chefs has bullied me and everyone else constantly for no reason. He treats everyone like trash. He is a true hypocrite. You see him doing something, but if you make it that same way he will yell at you. I agreed to work four days a week (14 hour days). for the last two weeks I have been scheduled for 11 shifts without being asked whether it was OK or not. All cooks are paid 80 dollars per day (shift pay). Overtime does not exist.
Anyway, Needless to say, I have been stressed. Last night, the one sous chef worked my station. I came in this morning to find the station in shambles. Nothing consolidated or put into quart containers. My whole lowboy was trashed and dirty. The prep list was not even complete, and was impossible for one person to accomplish in 6 hours. If I left the station like that for someone else, I would have been fired.
So, I broke down. I was the first person to arrive so I was alone in the kitchen. I wrote an extremely short note to my sous chef, and left......That was it. Mentally, I was done. I could not bear the stress of another day working in this restaurant. It was impossible for me to even consider another stress/anxiety filled service, coupled with the fact that my sous chef completely screwed me over
I chose to walk off at a horrible time. The busiest week of the year for the restaurant. Two cooks already quit in the last 3 days. I left a sinking ship of sorts.
I feel horrible for putting the added stress on my other coworkers. I really am not a bad person. I turned off my phone for the day, but I did get an extremely nasty voicemail from my sous. I could not even finish listening to it
I want to attempt to explain myself to him, but I don't know if it is even worth it at this point.
I know I messed up, but anxiety and frustration got the best of me. I have no desire to return to this place.
What would you all recommend doing?