Hi everyone two questions, one about difficulty communicating and cooking filets and burgers properly.
I have about 2 years experience in the kitchen as a prep cook and as a fry cook. Its been very tough and stressful for me, mostly because of a bad lisp and sometimes I stutter. I try very hard and want to be a chef but I've had a lot of difficulty getting through the first phases. I'm extremely embarrassed by the way I talk so a lot of times I end up not speaking up when I need to or don't ask a question when I don't understand something. Not to mention it gets worse when I'm busy behind the line. It really affects my job and shakes my confidence especially when cooks laugh or think I'm retarded or front of house people treat me like I don't exist. When I need to 86 something during a rush I'm too afraid to yell it out because it doesn't sound right and people laugh. Or when someone says how long on fries and I barely whisper it and the grill cook just buries his face in his hands and shakes his head. I'm far from stupid but my speech really affects my performance. I do well on the cooking part but not the communicating part. Does anyone have suggestions about how I could better communicate at work without embarrassing myself? I'm getting to the point of where I don't want to be there when people joke about me being 21 years old and never been on a date and new employees are "forewarned" before they try to talk to me. It really makes me feel terrible.
2.) Cooking filets and burgers
I'm learning grill on my own time off the clock and I'm decent at temping sirloins and tips but filets and burgers throw me off a little when temping correctly. I think the finger test works well on tips and sirloins but it just doesn't feel the same with filets and ground meat. Any tips on temping these two items correctly? I bought a cake tester but dont really know what sensation is what when I put it under my lower lip.