i just want to say WOW, thank you all for the kindness and responses! It is literally RARER than RARE that I come across a forum where literally every responder has responded with kindness and respect and such detailed responses! AWESOME!
really quick, not to focus again on my beliefs which are my own and not progressive for this thread: not a vegan, i actually consider myself more of a carnivore (i ensure all meat i eat is procured/handled humanely, i mainly eat wild game that has been humanely processed and fish). i have an interesting belief/concept i live by regarding dairy that i haven't ever heard of another person having. it's the concept that if i were the first human to have milked a cow (back when dairying had its start) i wouldn't have chosen to do that to a female cow. as the male that i am, i would never touch a female animal in the udder area (her breasts), it's just too personal and private for me. people say dairying is natural and cows enjoy it, but the fact of the matter is one day back in history it was simply chosen, someone chose to do that and i wouldn't personally have made that decision. it involves such concepts as the female, feminine areas, that is her udder and not for us to touch, the milk for her babies, etc. it's too sensitive of an area for me and as a male i would never touch a female creature in such a sensitive/personal spot that is her own. i believe the concept of milk coming out of a cow is such a feminine personal thing and we have no right to touch a female like that. in addition, no matter if the cows are treated humanely or organic, ALL cows have their babies taken away. it's this cruel act of humans that really makes me avoid dairy and all aspects of it. that is her milk that she is providing for HER baby and offspring, and she is going through the delicate/sensitive/feminine process of pregnancy to only have her gift taken away from her. as a male doing that to a female i find it an act from hell, and even more so when a female creature (human) is doing that to another female creature. and for anyone saying "so you don't do that to cows but yet you kill other animals for meat?" you have to understand, killing an animal humanely is just that, the animal is dead and gone! dairy cows, who are female creatures, have it worse as they AREN'T killed, they have to live the remainder of their lives having baby after baby taken away, pregnancy after pregnancy. it's a sick sick thing where-by the males have it the best as they are killed instantly and have humane nice lives while the females sit and suffer forever!
i just wanted to get that out of the way. my point was more to show that i'm not a vegan. i understand how tough the market is for vegan, non-traditional ways of eating. i will not let this defeat my passion. i have seen it done all over USA, people that open gluten-free, etc. eateries are successful EVERYDAY! i believe!
everydaygourmet: thanks i can't even believe i'm thinking this or typing this, but i almost want to keep all of this secret as i truly want to one day open my own eatery and my concept is very very unique and i AM afraid of it being copied.. i will think if posting recipes is something i am comfortable with and will let you know, but thank you for your kind words!
foodnfoto: wow thank you for your advice, i will look into that school. without sounding like a downer i really can't imagine myself leaving california, i am NOT a cold weather type of guy but positively i will research that school. who knows maybe i will move out there.
respectfully replying to your marketability thing: i have no doubts what i'm trying to market will be successful, i am not letting my particular "niche" get in the way. i understand what you mean when people get obsessive about what they eat.
i hear you on the fundamental techniques and kitchen operations, i will have to look into that school then! and i agree with vegan food sometimes invoking a particular response. again, i do not enjoy/eat/cook vegan foods, in fact my concept is cooking with animal fats (not butter) and i do really believe in the power of what i could bring to the world regarding my eatery.
thank you for your time i will look into both the school you recommended and think about talking with actual school personnel! thanks
nicko: thank you for your advice! i AM confident with my cooking skills but one can never be so ego-inflated especially when one has never been to a cooking school i feel. i feel there are millions upon millions of styles, dishes, ways of cooking, ideas that i would never get from a book or online. i just feel its right when you have a passion and especially are going to be serving people food that you took some schooling and learned all that you can.
your advice about working for a restaurant literally kills me! (i am not yelling at you here: )do you know how long i've been searching for someplace i can work whose food i agree with?? where i live there is literally ONE all organic eatery and unfortunately they serve dairy. i've never in my life heard of a dairy-free eatery except one, i believe they are in some other state (Bee's Knees Bakeshop, http://www.beeskneesbakeshop.com/default.aspx) but i don't think i'd be willing to move there. what i'm actually trying to do right now is work for that organic eatery near-by, my goal is to work for them and learn how to run an actual eatery like that and incorporate what i learn into my own eatery someday!
thank you for your advice
cheflayne: i appreciate your advice, wonderful! i will have to push harder if this is my dream like you say. my dream is to open a successful eatery however i feel if that is one's dream one's dream should also be to want to learn everything possible about cooking that one can't learn from just coming up with their favorite food recipes that they remember. there are lots of styles/ways of cooking that i would never know about without school, that is all, and if i'm taking on the role to cook for people and serve them food i would want them to know i did everything possible to learn the best foods i could cook for them. i will have to push this dream harder like you say, thank you for your time
soesje: your advice is wonderful as well! i have of course thought of that, i guess i'm the type of person who doesn't like to be negative, you know the one in the class who doesn't eat anything and makes everyone else feel that way. i guess i think too much about other people and am not following my dream because i don't want to grab attention for my eating habits. i will consider going to school and simply avoid eating anything i don't agree with.
i am trying to work in a restaurant/eatery but i have become so picky, not wanting to work for a place that serves food i don't agree with. i'm becoming such a recluse about that it's getting impossible to find work. i will have to accept only i eat this way and if i can put in hard work for many years and be around people and an eatery that doesn't believe the way i do, it will get me to where i want to be!
i love your last sentence and it is inspiring me to be stronger than ever! thank you greatly
kaique: that is interesting i am sorry for your skin allergy! maybe your body is telling you something? your words just like soesje's last sentence are truly truly inspiring like nothing else. whenever i need inspiration i will come back to this thread and re-read your kind words! thank you! i WILL fight for this and will remember it could be worse!
you guys are awesome, have great days!