I am a keen student and finishing my education next month.
When I started at my current workplace for stage, I was prepared to do ANYTHING for my chef as he has a good history and lots of experience (but no education schoolwise.
He's the rock'n roll type....has all the looks but he's very sensitive and "fragile" in fact.
I am a student with a "mild disability" namely having a hearing loss.
Seems chef finds it kinda hard to handle and is avoiding communication in ways, when he gets a chance.
I learned mostly through doing things and watching others do stuff.
He is not explaining or teaching me anything and currently I find myself kicking my butt to go to work and "just do it".
Have a very good basic knowledge theory and practice wise, classic french kitchen based.
Write own recipes and experiment.
The only thing I get to hear is negative comments while I am doing exactly as told by collegue (who has now moved on) for months.
Never a positive word.
With two new collegues taken in, I see him telling them stuff and teaching (of course I try to snatch anything where I can....) and allowing them to do things I will never find myself doing I think.
Seem to be stuck at plating starters and desserts, aside from cleaning and doing dishes.
It sounds like I am whining but I am just curious, because earlier this week had a very different experience in another kitchen for a day, where they accepted me as I am and made every effort.
I was just part of the crew and felt happier since months, and that was what I thought it would be like.
Not at my workplace.
They have a habit giving negative comments behind the back of other workers too....while everybody I see, is very motivated and commited.
Despite only a few weeks to go, given that I pass my exams, I am wondering whats wrong here and if this is a normal way of treating people although my own intuition says no, and that its kind of discrimination too.
It hurts because on the other hand, I can see through him, sense what he is on to, we seem to be a good match since we do sense when the other needs help.
I am not the kind of person to give up on whatever, chin up and nose in the wind.
But what are your thoughts on this, if what I am asking is clear at all?
He has often said, if I didn't work up to his expectations then he would have long kicked me out, no problem.
He has not, so far....he knows what I am able to, I come up with dessert ideas and work out recipes which are way behind my level.
Makes me feel uneasy and unwanted in ways because he seems to be avoiding me, leaving me on my own, no help prepping for my exams at all.
Not good for my motivation....except the experience earlier this week...helped a bit to let go.