I am sure we all experience it at one time or another no matter what we do for a living. As a Chef for over 20 years with some great successes and some really soul searching moments I have finally hit the moment of my life.... is my sanity and health worth the pressure of it all?
I was 36 when I was diagnosed with Lymphoma. Went through the whole chemo regimen and all that comes with it....the depression, why me, am I going to die, the sickness from the chemo and the consumption of the entire situation. One year later I was in remission. Okay, now I can focus again on my career again. Wrong! Eight months later the cancer came back" Here we go again!" The chemo and this time radiation on top of it. Once again....poor me! Six months later I was in remission for the second time and have been now for over 5 years. I should be grateful and thankful for beating this thing but I was consumed by anger and I guess what they call depression.
I didn't get cancer from being a chef. "Hell!....I should be ecstatic, I have been in remission for over five years" and cannot blame this for my recent burnout I am experiencing. I guess we all hit different chapters in our lives and question everything we do.
Maybe I am using the whole Cancer card as a way to do deal with my reasoning behind it all..."who knows!"
This post is not meant to be looking for sympathy or a pat on the back but a way for me to share I guess that if you hit that moment of burnout either change careers or find that passion again.