Before I get into the topic, let me explain my story and situation.
I'm a 22 years-old male with some college education.
During my college years, I was, so to speak, soulless. I literally bore no passion. I wasn't even into partying or similar gamut other students were into. I was attending college, as told by parents, and I believed that this was what everyone else is doing and, hence, I should follow the same path too. I've been B to B+ student all my life, but I haven't ever excelled at anything nor failed academically. I thought everything will stay the same way, and all I really need to do was follow the "majorities'" paths.
Then, everything collapsed as my father lost his business in Korea, due to the lawsuits the business was involved. Our family had no source of income for last 3 years. My dad moved to the states to take care of my step-brother and step-sister who were attending a private school around D.C. metro area, as he and his second wife got divorced. An year after, I quit my college due to money, of course, and came to live with my dad, and my new step-mom, along with 3 step-siblings. Since I was abused by dad's last ex-wife, I was little anxious about living with my new family. However, my new step-mom was a very nice and kind woman, and I somehow I was able to get along with my step-brother and sisters, of whom had disastrous personality inherited from her mom, my dad's ex-wife. While it was all stressful, and frustrating, I tried my best to be a nice brother to my siblings, as I understood all the stress coming from complicated family situation and living with my high, ill-tempered dad. While my dad is a hard worker and also a keen business man, he was not necessarily an ideal dad; every time my siblings and I had our own problems, my dad couldn't careless. Every time I made some trivial mistake(like spilling water and etc), from my childhood, my dad would say something like "That's why you're a failure, and you will fail." One day, I accidentally left my house key at the office, and he told me, "this is why you're destined to be a loser" along with some disgusting remarks on my mother. I later discovered, he also left his key at they office and we were locked out until our step-mom came back home. I'm sure you'd be able to imagine what happened when I told my dad, for the first time in my life, that I am seriously interested in culinary field and that I'd like his support once his financial situation gets better.
My dad opened up a restaurant, and he made me do from cashier, cook to manager. It was tough in the beginning, but I'm usually a good adapter, so I was able to handle works while working 70 to 80 hours every week, sometime with no day-off at all. And I am the only one at the restaurant gets 0 pay, as my dad says, "You should be grateful that you're able to eat and sleep. Nobody will hire you anyway." I was also fine with that, since I believed, if I work hard, my dad would recognize me someday. After couple months have passed, restaurant started picking-up its business a little bit, and everything seemed going well, until, my step-mom was sentenced jail time, as she was, while working as a layer, involved in some darker side of the business. I now then had to take care of house work, on top of 70-80 hours of labor at the restaurant. I worked even harder, in a hope that, a year or later, I'd be able to get some support from my dad. Today, I was told to leave house because my dad discovered I sent my old camera that he bought me to my mom a couple months. I tried my best to explain him, that I don't use nor need camera that I simply sent it to my mom so I don't have to worry about losing camera, yet only to hear him shouting at me and saying all sorts of swears that I'd expect to hear last from my very own father. I bursted into tears, and ran into my room.
Now sitting at my room with my brother sleeping on the bed, I can't regret more putting all those efforts to simply make him happy. I have no phone, or anything because I have had no money last 6 months and couldn't pay the bills. I've browsed here and there to find jobs, but since I have no car, I'm kind of stuck here and there is really no job opening around this area. I, somewhere in this forum, found out that there's still an opportunity for a restaurant apprenticeship here in the states. I don't know how exactly the system works, but I honestly see this as the only way to escape away from this madness.
I'm wondering if you guys can give me some information or idea in regard to this program. Thank you.