Hi to all! And big question to all professionals.

Welcome everyone. My name is Jarek it is pleasure to join this forum. I would like to start with question that will also introduce me. I am 32 years old, 3 years a go I did my job as diving instructor in Thailand, and... during the time off, in one of the restaurant I was invited to see the kitchen, and I fall in love with this profession. Problem is at this time I was 29 and I decided to change my profession. As so I decided to travel to London...start on pot wash, go through to get money for NVQ , first Chef qualifications..and so working in many places,changing job often I still can't find my way. Places I mostly worked were only work camps without passion and quality only stress and no place to learn. I have in my head that I am to old to become good Chef. I can not find way, should I struggle in Michelin 80 hrs a week, or go to normal restaurant, or go to culinary sschool? How to master all this knowledge.. Bourdain in his book said that guy after 30 should give up.I study a lot, read but I have only mess in my head. I do not even have place to cook as I rent room. I am not from rich family, all I do I depend by myself, but I need guidance. Some advices? Thank You and all the best.